Archive for August, 2004

Patricia says word associations

And I said, “OK”…
Free association is described as a “psychonanalytic procedure in which a person is encouraged to give free rein to his or her thoughts and feelings, verbalizing whatever comes into the mind without monitoring its content.” Over time, this technique is supposed to help bring forth repressed thoughts and feelings that the person can then work through to gain a better sense of self. ….says patricia
It’s a subliminal thing!

So she says gameboy and I immediately think:

  1. GAME BOY:: Buttons
  2. Biopsy:: Head
  3. Attack:: Shout
  4. Convention:: GOP
  5. Jewels:: Family
  6. Genetics:: Variation
  7. Impostor:: Poster
  8. Doug:: Nerd
  9. Arbitrary:: Meaningful
  10. Oscillate:: Back and Forth

link to the game

You’re funny on the phone

It makes me nervous.

Funny in the ‘It’s not the you that I recognise’ kind of way. Funny in the ‘I’m such a long way away’ kind of way. Funny in the ‘I miss you and want to say so but can’t’ kind of way.

Test it

And see if it actually works!

You can’t dabble in drugs, you have to submerge your head to join in at all…

Rudolph Giuliani - an idiot at the RNC

Giuliani

“The attack on the Israeli team at the Munich Olympics was in 1972. That’s a long time ago, that’s not yesterday. And the pattern began early. The three surviving terrorists were arrested and then within just three months the terrorists who slaughtered the Israeli athletes were released by the German government. Set free. Action like this became the rule, not the exception. Terrorists came to learn time after time that they could attack, that they could slaughter innocent people and not face any consequences.

In 1985, terrorists attacked the Achille Lauro and they murdered an American citizen who was in a wheelchair, Leon Klinghoffer. They marked him for murder solely because he was Jewish. Some of those terrorist were released and some of the remaining terrorists, they were allowed to escape by the Italian government because of fear of reprisals from the terrorists.

So terrorists learned they could intimidate the world community and too often the response, particularly in Europe, would be accommodation, appeasement and compromise. And worse, and worse they also learned that their cause would be taken more seriously, almost in direct proportion to the horror of their attack.”

“Before Sept. 11, we were living with an unrealistic view of our world much like observing Europe appease Hitler…”

Well thank you ‘Rudolph’ for that little mis-analysis of history. Europe didn’t appease Hitler - we are not the pacifier of the right-wing lunatics of the world. However Europe didn’t see clearly what Hitler was capable of. He was seen as a rabble-rouser, as the leader of the NSDAP and before that, what had been known as the German Workers Party. Leaders though of him as someone who could be trusted to make as much noise as possible, get in a fight, and cause trouble but was not seen to have the potential to attempt to overrun central Europe. When he was seen through, when his two-faced nature because clear, Europe acted. America did not, waiting for as long as possible whilst Roosevelt deliberated with the lives of 60 million people, until Pearl Harbour forced intervention.
Also, is this speech taking place in Tel Aviv? Why the Israel focus, does Giuliani want to be relected somewhere in NYC again? I know he’s into the whole ‘I love New York’ thing - getting the crowd to really LOVE him, but Ruddy, could you tone it down a bit, let go a little? I mean, I’m dying here, listening to this rubbish that you’re spouting about Boston and Chicago loving NYC and then somehow linking that to George W. It’s a non sequitur.
By the way W, that means it’s bullsh*t.

NY Times Transcript

On a related note…

The new iMac.
I’m not quite sure whether it’ll be a big hit. From the pictures it looks to be acceptable as a computer, but it doesn’t have that ‘wow’ factor that so many other Apple releases of late have achieved. Perhaps as a result it’ll sell well - it’s not particularly obtrusive or high profile - rather understated in a way that PC users might appreciate since it looks like something any Windows manufacturer might come up with.
Apple iMac

My sister, so gassy

Was just cold-called by a scottish gas company, wanting to know whether my younger sister, at the age of 16, wanted to change gas suppliers to their service.
I told that that she probably didn’t care, but that the rest of my family were just fine with our current gas. Thank god for marketers, once my friend’s cousin was called to check how his cellphone plan was going… he was 3 years old at the time, didn’t have a phone, didn’t really understand what the commotion was about.

Mobile Chalk Printing

Bikes Against BushA protestor who invented a wireless bike-mounted street printing gadget has been arrested in NYC whilst explaining his device in an MSNBC interview. Wired background story
A video of his arrest and the surrounding curfuffle can be found on the inventor, Joshua Kinberg’s website in quicktime and torrent links:
Arrest live!

“Bikes Against Bush is an interactive protest/performance occurring simultaneously online and on the streets of NYC during the Republican National Convention. Using a wireless Internet enabled bicycle outfitted with a custom-designed printing device, the Bikes Against Bush bicycle can print text messages sent from web users directly onto the streets of Manhattan in water-soluble chalk.”

Kinberg says of his arrest, “I had not demonstrated the device, but was merely describing the project and the goal’s of the performance to the media when a van with 5-6 police officers arrived. I produced Identification upon their request, after which they waited for a superior to arrive before arresting me. I was booked, fingerprinted, and photographed.
They had bomb squad inspect my device, and afterwards they congratulated me on the design calling it “genius.” Intelligence detectives questioned me about “violent protestors,” but seemed disappointed to learn that I am an artist and only know other artists, and had no knowledge of any violence being planned. All my equipment — bicycle, computer, cell phone, and electronics are being held till further notice. I am scheduled to appear in court on Friday and am facing the possibilty of jail time.”

Japanese Cinema

Saw a movie last night called Ramblers. It’s a Japanese movie, going along the art-house vein of cinema they have. Whilst watching it I realized something about the style that we often don’t appreciate; their editing style is completely different to that of the West. In western movies, the director has a shot cut away when something interesting is happening, when we are in the middle of some action in order to keep us interested and gripped. This is most evident in action movies where, in order for the suspense to keep being ratcheted up, we can’t be allowed to see any ‘final’ decisive result. If we do somehow glimpse the end of a scene, are allowed to come to the conclusion of a thought as opposed to cutting away before returning later, this is thought of as a weakness. Even in relatively slow-moving movies such as Fargo, we are not allowed to see the axe come down for fear of repulsion or later disinterest.
Contrast this with Japanese cinema where the camera is willed to linger, to capture every apparently mundane movement. We think of this as being slow to tell the story, as being perhaps even laborious to get to the point. This movie I saw, Ramblers, took eighty three minutes to show us the arc of a story where two young men, film directors, arrive in a town not knowing anyone and wait for their wealthy actor friend to turn up. Very little happens and the story moves slowly. But do we think of this as being laborious because we are used to living such blithely over-accelerated life where everything is expected to be with us NOW.
In books such as James Gleick’s ’Faster: The acceleration of just about everything’ and trend-watching groups such as Trendsetters.com, we are told that life is speeding up, that phone operators have software removing ‘ums’ and ‘ahs’ in requests for local listings, increasing their productivity and that Wagner’s Ring has sped up by almost an hour since it was premiered in 1876, due to a faster tempo. It is now thought that much of the stress in our lives comes from sensory overload – from simply taking in too much information. One can now pay to float in an insulated tank, protected from all light, sound and feeling; cut off from all sensation save simply ‘being’.

Though we love action thrillers and explosively paced movies, one emerges from the darkness feeling in need of a rest, of some sort of respite. Japanese cinema is perhaps an art in taking time, in approaching a story not from the viewpoint of ‘how efficiently can I tell the tale’ but of ‘how effectively the tale can be told?’ There is something to be learnt from this, of that I am sure.

I got the message

He sent me an email today and I felt like I’d died. I’ve been waiting, trying to not contact him, trying to hold myself in, but I’m bursting at the seams, wanting that connection that I can’t seem to grasp. So I’m there, writing emails to myself, unsure of whether I’ll send them, unsure of what to do, and I feel bad about it.
It’s not like I’m trying to artificially create an ‘absence makes the heart grow fonder’ situation, but I’m trying to not be there too much, trying to not give too much away, so that he feels, so that he understands what it’s like to feel locked out and alone.

Of course I know that I’m not locked out, but I feel uninformed and unsure. I write a lot, I empty my head onto the now-electronic page, and perhaps this reveals myself too much, perhaps it fills the space. Filling the space is what I want to do, what I want him to feel is full - connected and together, but by telling all, by giving everything away, but not holding back, the complacency can creep in. I feel like Dave Matthews:

You cannot quit me so quickly
There’s no hope in you for me
No corner you could squeeze me
But I got all the time for you, love

The Space Between
The tears we cry
Is the laughter keeps us coming back for more
The Space Between
The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep safe from the pain

But will I hold you again?
These fickle, fuddled words confuse me
Like ‘Will it rain today?’
Waste the hours with talking, talking
These twisted games we’re playing

I don’t know where it is that we get satisfaction from our present state of being, but so frequently I lose the ability to agree with expounded idea that I should be happy, and then create an aura of anxiety. Is it mild panic that goes on within ones head, no hind given on the surface, or is it simply a moment of instability where I lose my footing on the road of my convictions and wish I had someone to take my hand and direct me towards the wisest course. Sometimes I feel like my cloud of convictions, the strengths I rely on to pretend to the world that I’m strong, simply give up on me and fly away:

Every man, wherever he goes, is encompassed by a cloud of comforting convictions, which move with him like flies on a summer day. - Bertrand Russell

Come back to me.

Speaking of bombing out

Toby has a link to some stuff by these people, who appear to do pastiches of ‘classic’ movies but in a Flash cartoon style with the actors replaced by bunnies. By far the best - perhaps because I can remember the movie best of the bunch - is the Titanic version.
Perfect.
Titanic Bunnies